Title: Breakaway, Part 4a/?
Author: Sapphire (sapphiresfic)
Pairing/Characters: Puckleberry (Puck/Rachel), Puck, Rachel, other Glee characters
Word Count: 10,363 (Part a & b)
Spoilers: This part to '3x16 - Saturday Night Glee-ver'; whole series will be through the Glee season 3 finale.
Series: 'Breakaway' (List of all the parts on my LJ)... Also follows my LJ Lark series. So far 'Part 1 - Breaking The Rules' and 'Part 2 - Something To Talk About'.
Fic Table prompt: #31 - Space (table at my journal here).
Summary1: Alternate, deleted and additional scenes leading to Puckleberry being endgame by the end of season 3. Parallels with my LJ Lark series. Slightly AU after the end of '3x11 - Michael'. Posted in honor of Puckleberry Week. For fic table prompt #31 - Space.
Summary2: Episode '3x16 - Saturday Night Glee-ver'
Disclaimer1: I don't own Glee, so I'm just borrowing the characters and ideas for the fun of writing, *but* I do own the original characters, original plot and other original ideas.
A/N1: I edited this, so all mistakes are mine.
A/N2: Feedback keeps me writing, so please comment or review. :D
Disclaimer2: Title from one of my favorite Kelly Clarkson songs 'Breakaway'. Just borrowing. I don't own!
Disclaimer3: Any familiar lines from the episode listed have been underlined... Just borrowing them! I don't own!
3x16 - Saturday Night Glee-ver
It all started with Blaine. They'd recently found out that the theme for Nationals would be 'Vintage', so he, Mike and Brittany put together a dance routine to 'You Should Be Dancing' and performed it on a Thursday for the rest of the Glee Club. Will loved it, because when he was in Glee Club in the 1990s, they went all the way to winning Nationals with disco hits, but almost all of the New Directions members hated the idea.
Most of the teens had been against disco, every time Will had suggested it in the past and they hoped they'd heard the last of the music, but as Monday rolled around, the teens found the choir room had been taken over by a very large light-up dance floor.
"Did someone steal our floor?" Brittany asked as they began to gather around the odd floor.
"Don't worry, we'll have it back by the end of the week," Will promised, "but right now, Sue is letting us borrow..."
"My very own, personal, one-of-a-kind, shatter-proof Plexiglass dance floor. Modeled, of course, on the dance floor immortalized by a young John Travolta and the legendary dance-ical, Saturday Night Fever," Sue said, looking over at the teens.
As soon as she said the movie's name, everyone groaned, "Coach Sylvester, while we applaud your proper use of the terminology we've already told Mr. Schue that we do not support disco in this room," Rachel commented, knowing no one else would stand up to them.
"Some of you do," Will admitted, moving to pick up something and came back with a record album of the movie's soundtrack, "so for this week's assignment we're going back in time to the songs of Saturday Night Fever."
"Didn't we already agree last week that disco sucks?" Puck asked, motioning to his perfectly chosen black t-shirt with 'Disco Sucks' written on it in silver print.
"Well this album, funny hair teen, is one of the best selling soundtracks of all time," Sue chimed in, "and let's be honest, everyone, you've been out of ideas since Madonna week, two years ago," she added, having said the same thing to Will the previous week and she meant it.
"Look guys, I know you don't like disco, but honestly, the main character's story in the movie is a lot like yours. He's working in a dead-end job, struggling to figure out his life. The only time he feels sure about himself is when he's performing on the dance floor. He had a dream to get out of his old neighborhood in Brooklyn and get to New York City and by the end of the movie, that's what he'd done. He turned his dream into a plan," Will explained, looking at everyone.
Groans echoed through the room again, but they all realized their coaches wouldn't give up until they'd agreed, so Kurt was the next one to speak up, "so why the dance floor?"
"Because we're going to start with a dance-off and the winner will receive a replica of John Travolta's iconic white polyester suit," Sue explained, reaching to get a small figurine wearing the suit she was talking about.
The reaction from the teens was exactly what the coaches wanted; a little competition between them, but Puck was still against it it, "I would totally put that suit on... eBay."
Rachel glanced at Puck, who was next to her and laughed lightly, "come on, Noah. Have a little adventure," she murmured.
Puck sighed, but squeezed her hand, "alright, for you."
"Great!" Rachel smiled leaning into him a little as Sue and Will stepped up on the dance floor to start them off.
The finalists for the dance-off ended up being Mercedes, Santana and Finn. The three were confused and quickly figured out why they had been chosen; the 'contest' had been rigged. Will was concerned about the three of them, because of the soon-to-be graduates of New Directions, they were the only ones who hadn't really been thinking about their future. Will hoped that with the story and music of the movie, Saturday Night Fever, it could help them in their quest to find out what they wanted to do with the rest of their lives. Each of them were expected to perform one song from the soundtrack that week and see if they could settle on a direction for their life.
"I hate disco," Puck muttered, plopping down on the piano bench in the auditorium while he and Rachel were hanging out during lunch.
"I know. I'm not a huge fan of it either, but at least we don't have to perform any songs from the movie, unless we want to," Rachel admitted, taking a seat next to him.
"Yeah, I'm glad for that," Puck agreed, "can we focus on some music that isn't disco?" He asked, motioning to her music folder.
Rachel laughed lightly, but reached for it, "I think that could definitely be arranged," she replied, pulling out the sheet music to one of her songs, "how's this?"
Puck glanced at it and nodded, "perfect."
Since it was Monday, the day Rachel usually got a message from her 'Secret Admirer' by the end of the day, she wasn't surprised when she found another note in her locker when she got to it after school. "You're gonna shine brighter than the sun!" It read and she couldn't help the smile and blush that grew on her cheeks.
Her messages were never more than a sentence, but the words held so much meaning to her. She knew, somewhere in McKinley, there was someone who believed in her and knew she'd be a star one day, which encouraged her to continue her focus on her audition to NYADA, but 'the song' just hadn't stood out to her yet. She wasn't sure if it was because she just couldn't make a choice or if it was because her mind kept wondering what was going on in Puck's head and she knew she wouldn't be able to wait much longer to find out.
When she asked Puck to join her in New York, he said he'd consider it, but since then, she couldn't help wishing, hoping and praying he'd decide to. She made an agreement with herself that she wouldn't continually to ask him, giving him some time and space to figure out just what he wanted to do, but she hoped soon she'd find out. He'd been such an amazing friend to her in the last few months and knew that their relationship would continue to grow, along with her romantic feelings for him, and she just wanted to experience New York with him, no matter what their relationship grew into.
Pushing aside her thoughts, for probably the thousandth time, Rachel gathered her things and went to meet the person she was thinking about, to continue practicing. She knew her audition was coming up in a few weeks and she needed all the time she could get, especially because she still hadn't picked the right song.
When Tuesday rolled around, Mercedes was the first person to entertain everyone with a song from the Saturday Night Fever soundtrack. She'd picked 'Disco Inferno' and did an amazing vocal rendition, while dancing with Santana and Brittany as back-up. She admitted at the end that she did have a dream, a big one. She wanted to be a singer, as famous and successful as Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston, who had just passed away recently, but she didn't know the first thing about getting there. She also had a dad who was a dentist and didn't believe her dream was possible. She felt like she was stuck, scared to move across the country to California to try to make it, but knew that would be her first big step in making it.
Rachel reminded her that she was moving to New York, but Mercedes quickly added that Rachel had parents who supported her. Mercedes didn't know the first thing about becoming the singer in LA and even though she knew she was a 'star' within the club, she didn't think she could be as big of a hit outside of the club, so she was lacking some of the self-esteem that she needed to push herself to her stardom.
Though not everyone in the club was looking at being a star, all of them, either currently or in the past, had struggled with that same problem. They were all scared of their future, unsure if they were making the right decisions, scared of moving to a new place and scared of what real life could throw at them, which is why some of them hadn't made any major decisions on their future, even though graduation was approaching quickly.
After listening to Mercedes' speech and hanging in out with Rachel during lunch and after school, Puck spent the rest of the day and night continuing to think, like he had been for the past few weeks. After Rachel asked him to consider moving to New York, he'd been thinking about it a lot and now with Will's ulterior motive for bringing disco into the club, he'd finally made a decision and now needed to talk to Finn.
As morning arrived, Puck found Finn at his locker before Glee, so he walked up to him, "hey, Finn," he greeted.
"Hey, man, what's up?" Finn asked, closing his locker and looking at him.
"Well, it's been a few weeks since I asked you about going to LA. I know you need to think on it and honestly, I did, too, and um," Puck rubbed his neck, "I need to let you know that I'm..."
"Look, Puck," Finn cut him off before he could continue, "I really appreciate that you asked me to be your business partner and I think you've got a great idea going for you. I wish you all the best of lucky with that, but I can't make a move like that. We'll always be friends, but I just can't go to Cali with you."
A few weeks prior, Puck would have been upset that Finn turned him down, but now that he had his own new direction, Puck was relieved and felt like a weight had lifted off his chest, "good. I'm glad," he admitted and seeing Finn's confused and hurt expression, he quickly continued, "no, not like that!" He assured him, "yeah, we will always be friends. I just mean that I'm glad you didn't plan to go, because I've changed my mind, too. I'm not going to Cali, either. I've gotten a better offer that I'm gonna take. It's got better opportunities for advancement," he explained.
"Oh yeah? What is it?" Finn wondered.
"I haven't quite decided all the details, yet, and I haven't told the person who offered it to me, so I want to do that before I say anything," Puck admitted. He would have told him right away, but he didn't want to push his luck. He knew Finn would be jealous the moment he found out and Puck also wanted Rachel to be the first one to know.
"Oh, alright. That makes sense," Finn held out his hand to him, "I wish you luck in whatever you end up doing, man."
"Thanks, Finn," Puck smiled, shaking his hand, "and I hope you figure out what you wanna do, too. I guess Lima isn't too bad, if you wanted to stay around here for a while longer."
"That's what I was thinking. Lima is home and I'm just not ready to leave," Finn said honestly.
"Then don't. Just because we're graduating doesn't mean you have to leave home and know exactly what you'll do with the rest of your life. We're only eighteen. We've got tons more living ahead of us before we have to figure everything out," Puck told him.
Finn smiled as his shoulders relaxed, "I'm trying to tell that to Mr. Schuester, but he doesn't seem to get it."
Puck rolled his eyes at Will's 'lesson' for the week, a way to help Finn and some others find a dream, "I think Mr. Schue is just trying to help us find a direction, but you can't let anyone force you to pick out your future until you're ready," Puck told him, "if you want to stay in Lima for a few more months or years after school, do it. It's your choice, your life."
Finn nodded at him, "thanks man."
Heading off to Glee, the teens listened to Santana singing 'If I Can't Have You', another song from the soundtrack picked for the week. At the end, Will thought her message helped her, not only to sing to her girlfriend, but also to show she was looking for marriage equality for everyone and was heading off to law school to be one step closer to it. Santana admitted that she wanted marriage equality for everyone, but she really only wanted to be famous and didn't care how she did it.
"Then I have to say I'm disappointed in you. Fame is not something to aspire to," Will commented.
Santana rolled her eyes, "how about you save the lecture for the theater nerds that are gonna starve in New York while desperately trying to tap dance their way to fame?" She replied, "no offense, Hummel and Berry, and everyone can stop their hating because you all want to be famous, too. The only difference is that I'm a thousand-percent sure that I am actually going to be famous," she added, looking around at the other teens.
Kurt and Rachel exchanged glances and sighed, and Puck noticed the hurt looks on their faces, "just because you're so sure of yourself, doesn't mean you can insult other people's dreams," Puck snapped. She just rolled her eyes and Puck turned his attention to Will, "and not everyone needs to know what they're gonna do with the rest of their lives, today, Mr. Schue," he told him, "some people might want to stay here for a while after graduation before figuring out their lives. We don't all have to know right now."
Will thought for a moment and sighed, "I suppose you're right, but I see potential in all of you and I don't want you guys to end up stuck here."
"This is our home, Mr. Schue. Most of us were born and raised here and it's like you're forcing us to leave it. Some of us are just not ready," Finn said.
Rachel had seen Puck and Finn talking in the hallway before Glee and after hearing what they both said to Will, she got a sick feeling in her stomach that Puck was going to stay in Lima and not go to New York. They met like usual during lunch, but didn't want to get into a huge conversation with him, so she tried to ignore the feelings, but wasn't sure how well she was doing about them.
Puck noticed Rachel was a little unfocused while they were in the auditorium, but before he could ask her, lunch was over, so he told himself he'd talk to her after school. When school was finally over, he got his things and headed to the auditorium and waited for her to join him. It wasn't long before she was walking up on the stage and laying her backpack on the piano.
"Hey, Rach," he commented, surprised she hadn't said anything yet.
"Hello, Noah," she replied simply, taking her music folder out of her bag.
"She's pissed," he thought, getting up and moving towards her, "look, if you're pissed at me for standing up to Santana in Glee and telling Mr. Schue that today, I'm sorry."
Rachel's shoulders fell and she shook her head, "no, that's not why I'm upset," she replied.
"Then why are you mad?" Puck asked, his mind racing as he tried to figure out what he did to upset her.
Closing her eyes for a moment, she gathered her thoughts, "I appreciate that you stood up to Santana and you were right with what you said to Mr. Schuester. Not everyone has to know what they're going to do in their future right now," she replied, "and I gathered from that, that you've made your decision and won't be going to New York," she added softly, looking at him, "which I think is a big mistake, because you have so much potential, Noah."
Puck narrowed his eyes in confusion and then realized the issue, "I was only saying that because when I talked to Finn this morning, he said that Mr. Schue is on his case to figure out his future and Finn isn't ready to do that. He wants to stay here for a while before he makes that choice," Puck told her, closing the distance between them and gently resting his hands on her shoulders, "I went to talk to him earlier to tell him that my plans for Cali are gone. I have a better plan. I didn't tell him what it was, because I wanted to tell you first. I've decided to go to New York," he grinned, when her face turned to a bright smile and her eyes widened a little, "I don't know what I'll do yet, but I'll figure it out. I've realized that I really enjoy hanging out with you and I want that to continue and New York does have a lot of things we could do together."
All the worries building in Rachel's body subsided as she heard his words, and nodded at his last sentence, "yes, there is a lot to do," she agreed, "we're going to New York!" She exclaimed, jumping up and throwing her arms around his neck to hug him tightly, "I promise, Noah, you won't regret this decision!"
Reacting when she jumped up, he wrapped his arms around her and grinned, "honestly, if I'm with you, I don't see how I could regret anything," he replied, knowing he made the right decision.
Rachel pulled her head back a little to look at him, "you mean that?" She asked and when he nodded, she smiled, "Noah, I have..." She couldn't help the blush that grew on her cheeks, "I need to ask you something, but I need you to do something for me," she admitted.
Puck eyed her, confused at what she was talking about, but gently set her back down on the floor, "um, should I be worried?"
"No, well, I don't know," she admitted, taking a deep breath and reaching for her music folder, "I know most of us are against disco and usually I'd agree, but I looked up the songs online from the movie soundtrack that Mr. Schuester and Coach Sylvester assigned us this week and I couldn't help be attracted to one song. I think... Well, it's something I need to say and to know," she pulled a few sheets of paper out of her folder and handed it to him, "I found the piano music online and I cut off the name, because I don't want you to know it before I get through the song."
"Alright," Puck glanced over the music and reluctantly moved to the piano bench again, "so, you just want me to start playing this and you'll sing it?"
"Yeah," she nodded, nervously pushing a piece of hair behind her ear, "well, here it goes nothing," she thought taking a calming breath and smiling at him.
Puck placed his fingers on the keys and was definitely confused at what he was about to play, but began pressing the keys in the correct combinations, while keeping a partial eye on her.
When the song reached the right spot, she began to sing the words she had in front of her, having not memorized the whole thing yet, "I know your eyes in the morning sun. I feel you touch me in the pouring rain and the moment that you wander far from me, I wanna feel you in my arms again and you come to me on a summer breeze. Keep me warm in your love, then you softly leave and and it's me you need to show... How deep is your love?" She paused, familiar with the chorus, so she was able to look at him to continue, "I really need to learn, 'cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down when they all should let us be, we belong to you and me."
As Rachel had started singing to the slow melody, Puck didn't think too much of it, until the words began to sink in when she looked at him to sing the chorus. While he listened to the words, the feelings he'd had for her grew even more and he realized she was asking him how deep his feelings were for her, because she had them for him and was curious how he felt. "She really has feelings for you, man. This is awesome!" He thought, staring at her when he could, between glancing to the sheet music in front of him.
Moving to stand beside him, she slipped her left arm around his shoulders and looked at him, as she continued with the next verse; the one she'd memorized, "I believe in you. You know the door to my very soul. You're the light in my deepest, darkest hour. You're my savior when I fall and you may not think, I care for you, when you know down inside that I really do and it's me you need to show," she stopped, reaching out to gently still his hands, so he wouldn't keep playing and said the next few words, the question she had for him, "how deep is your love?"
When Rachel reached out and stilled his hands, to say the last few words, he couldn't help the smile that grew on his face. He gently turned his hand over, that was covered by hers, and laced their fingers together, but before he could speak, she began talking.
"Noah, before you say anything, I know that 'love' is a super strong word right now, but I really like and care about you as a friend, but also as more than that. I have a lot of feelings for you that I've never felt before and I just wanted you to know. I've been keeping them to myself for quite a while, because I really do enjoy the friendship we've formed and I understand if you don't feel the same way, but I needed to tell you. And you choosing to go to New York is not the only reason why I'm doing this now," she explained, wanting to clarify things before he responded to her. Seeing his smile and the twinkle in his eye, she hoped they, along with him joining their hands together was a good sign.
Letting her talk, Noah didn't move, but as she finished, he let go of her hand, stood up and stepped around the piano bench so he could face her. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her close to him, pressing a long, overdue kiss to her lips. He hoped that for those few moments while their lips connected, she'd feel the same sparks he was and would help her understand that he felt the same way. Snaking one hand up to brush through her hair gently, he rested it on her cheek as he broke their kiss and smiled at her again, "I feel the same way, Rachel," he whispered, locking eyes with her.
Relief washed over her body as his words sunk in, "oh Noah, you don't know how good that feels to hear you say that," she said honestly, tears she'd held back finally falling from her eyes, "I'm so glad," she added, slipping her arms around his waist.
"Me too," he agreed, "I've been keeping my distance because I knew you'd just split with Finn and have your audition coming up. You needed space and I didn't want to give you any added pressure."
"I appreciate that, I really do, and I was partially doing the same, but every time I see or talk to you, I'm more drawn to you and I just didn't want to wait anymore," she told him, "and in a way, it kind of was a pressure, by not expressing myself to you. Now that I have, I feel relieved and like I can focus more, now. Does that make sense?"
Puck nodded, "yeah, totally. You've been thinking about this for a while and it's been distracting you, hasn't it?"
"I've drifted off into space several times because of it, yes," she admitted with a blush.
"Well, now you don't have to hide it anymore," he replied with a grin.
"You're right," she nodded, leaning her head against his chest for a moment as they continued to hug. "So, what does this make us?"
"Whatever you want us or are ready for us to be," he replied honestly.
"Well, I want to take things really slow and... I know you've said it before, but um... your business," she bit her lip.
"I gave up the additional activities a long time ago," he assured her, "so I'm all yours and only yours, if that's what you want. I want you to focus on your NYADA audition and I'll continue to help out anyway I can, so I'm cool if you wanna keep things just as they are until then, and maybe we could add a few dates or dinners in during the week and hang out on the weekends a little," he suggested, "I'm okay with going at whatever pace you want."
"That sounds like a great idea," she smiled, "and I did believe you before, I just wanted, to um, be clear."
"I know and it's cool. No hard feelings," he leaned down and pressed a kiss to her lips.
As they kissed, sparks ignited all over her body, a feeling she'd never experienced with Finn and she soaked in the moment as long as she could.
After months of his building feelings and the ones he'd had for her in the past, Puck was glad to finally be able to hold her in his arms, kiss her and feel her close to him. The sparks that went off throughout his body helped him realize he wasn't dreaming and they were really together. He wasn't worrying about her cheating on someone and he definitely didn't plan to rush her, but he was looking forward to the day they could take their physical relationship beyond the simple touches. Until then, he settled to enjoy their building romance and allow everything to happen naturally, "this feels amazing," he whispered as their lips broke apart.
"It does," she smiled, "can this mean we're boyfriend and girlfriend?"
"Without a doubt," he nodded, then smirked, "but on one condition."
Rachel raised a curious eyebrow at him, "what is it?"
"That you let me cop a feel anytime I want and not snap at me for it," he winked.
"Noah!" Rachel blushed, swatting him playfully in the chest, but took a moment to think on it seriously, "I suppose that would be alright, as long as you're tasteful about it and we're not in public. There are some things I'd rather keep between us."
"Sounds fair to me," he admitted in surprise, fully expecting her to be against it or give him a hard time about it, "girlfriend."
"Boyfriend," she replied, relaxing in his arms, relieved that she finally got to talk to him about her feelings and to find he felt the same way about her. She knew they'd have a lot of things to talk about over the next few weeks and months, but for the moment, she wanted to just enjoy their time together and see how their relationship continued to grow.
Link to Part 4b
(Had to split the chapter up because it was just a little too long to fit in one LJ post.)